mmmm.... so, I got to talk to Javier. I had, like, multiple orgasms in 5 seconds. EVERY 5 seconds. Now I know that he's 25, he lives with his parents yet, he doesn't have a regular job, but he's looking for one and in the meantime he's doing some gardening on-and-off. He also dropped Economics on his second year (LIKE ME! WOAH! WE TALKED ABOUT IT FOR A WHILE. I'VE NEVER BEEN MORE HAPPY THAT I HAD ACTUALLY CHOSEN THAT CAREER), and he really loves motorcycles, and he's planning on buying a new one, one like my mom's!!! (he's got an old Zanella 50 now).

AND OMG!!! Adrian (whom hadn't seen him before cause he wasn't coming to practice) said to me "look at him! -like I hadn't, really- if you see him on profile, he looks a lot like the singer of The Killers" and I was all "NO HE DOES NOT! HE LOOKS EXACTLY LIKE SPENCER, THANKYOUVERYMUCH" inside. Of course I didn't say it, it would have sound crazy. mmmm... yeah, crazy.

I'VE GOT A PIC OF HIM!! (well, it's actually us all, but he's the one on the left corner!) He's got short hair, glasses, HIS PRECIOUS TUMMY AND MILLION-DOLARS WORTH SMILE. He's also kind of blurry in the pic, but I'll take whatever I can get.




*dead dead dying* *is dead of horniness*

 I'm doomed. Like, totally screwed. There's this new boy whom looks REALLY REALLY a lot like Spencer Smith. And he's driving me INSANE. I space out looking a him and Walter keeps trowing me dirty glances. He's got the sexy beard (and he can also ROCK THE HELL OUT OF IT), really nice eyes (although they aren't blue), the lips, the physical complexion... but he's got a TUMMY!!! AND I WANT TO BURY MY FACE THERE AND NEVER LET HIM GO!!!! ARRRRGHHHHH!!!... and, the thing that actually caught my breath: HIS SMILEEEEE!!! I SWEAR SWEAR IT IS REALLY THAT MILLION-DOLLARS WORTH SMILE SPENCER HAS!!!! *dead*

 He's Vanesa's friends or something, and she bought him along for my viewing pleasure because he's a great tenor. He smiled at something and I made a very embarrassing, VERY orgasm-like noise that startled my friend. She was all "what!? what happened????" and I'm like *hides face in hands* "nothing, juts a little stomachache". SERIOUSLY!!!! I'M 19 GOING ON 13. FUUUCKKKK.

AND HIS LAUGH!!! ARGH!!! He needs to stop before I go really out of my mind and jump him right there, in the middle of practice. If he as much as glances twice at me, I swear I'll kick Hugo's good intentions and get it right on with him. I can't get him out of my head recently, I see him EVERYWHERE. Oh, btw, his name's Javier. I don't even know his age or last name, but I'm head over heels 'in crush' with him. I SUCK.

Normal week, pretty much. I realized I have a serious problem with my cigarettes consumption number. I've managed to smoke 5 to 10 gigarettes PER DAY! I'm going crazy (and money-less) -.-'' I know it may not be a lot, but before I used to buy a 20 and it lasted trough a week at least, 10 or 15 days, give or take. Now I have to buy a box every 2 or 3 days. INSANEEEEEE.

Mel keeps throwing her panties at me. What's a girl to do???? I can't even think straight (HAHA THE IRONY HAHAHAHAHA) when I'm close to her. We were talking about the normal "what kind of body-shape do you like in a girl" and she was all "ohh, like yours, seriously *wink wink*" YES MELISA, PLEASE DO NAUGHTY THINGS TO MY UN-SEXY BODY!!! Also, I went with her to a piercing parlor and she got a lip ring. A LIP RING. TO GO ALONG WITH HER TONGUE RING. I'M GONNA DIEEEEEE (this happened on friday morning, both the panties-throwing and the lip ring)

I've cooked some pretty yumi things this week, and I'm HIGHLY EXCITED because Walter makes it clearer and clearer that he wants me to be lead soprano. OH MY JOYYYYYYYY.

Oh! I got bitten by a dog the day before yesterday :'( it hurt.

So, I've been having like zero time to use the internet. I'm going into withdrawl.

I started my cooking classes, and between that, singing, practice and having a boyfriends who wants to spend time with me (and friends, of course, the best girlfriends ever) I barely have time to eat (some!), sleep, take a shower and, rarely, watch some tv.

Oh! I've finally craved and downloaded Pretty.Odd. Seriously though, I live at the ass of the world and the album hasn't been released here yet. I already put all the songs on my cell-phone, and I've been listening to them while walking all the way to-and-from cooking classes. I'll have a review ready later, maybe tomorrow.

So, that's it. I have classes again in less than 2 hours. I get out at 5, go directly into singing lessons, andfrom there to practice. I'll be back at 10, rougly. Heaven help me *dead*

mmm... I just had practice today, the singing lessons were cancelled :-((((

This saturday we have a wedding! YAY FOR WEDDINGS!! I love weddings cause we get to play the "Ave Maria" and I LUVVVV IT!!

Saw Hugo after practice, talked a lot... things are good, I think I like him more and more every time.

OH! and I started my cooking classes today!!! I'M GOING TO BE A CHEF!!! FUCK.THE.WHAT! *lol*

Mel came today and things were OK. I kind of thought we were going to be like weird or whatever (because, cmon, we ATE EACH OTHER'S FACES YESTERDAY) but it was really alright.  I swear, if Meli so much as tells me she wants to have something with me, I'll KICK Hugo and get it right on with her. Just saying, not actually hoping... well, who am I kidding, right? Right. Let's move on

It's late and I'm tired and I haven't practiced my zen yet today, so off to bed I'm. Peace.

So... last night I made out with my best friend. MADE OUT. WITH MY (GIRL) BEST FRIEND. I MADE OUT WITH MELISA!!!!  ASFHASIDNKJSNDLKUAOIUYELAIUHEMX ,VMBN<,BDBC..BKKJHKH1111111

I'm starting to have some serious thoughts about my sexuallity now. Cause I liked it! NO! I REALLY EFFING LOVED IT!!!

pst, she's a WAYYYY better kisser than any of my bf ever were. F.T.W. --FUCK IT!

SOOOOOO.... I have a boyfriend!!!  \o?

We agreed to officially date today, but we'll count since the first time we kissed, meaning March 26st.

He's kind of great, untill now a perfect gentleman. He's funny when he has to be, serious when he realizes I'm not jocking, and so on... he's not a "machista" like Pilo, nor a complete virgin like Maxi (we actually plan on having sex pretty soon, if things go according to plan). The only thing I could complain about is his kissing technique. mmm... yeah, he's not great or whatever, but... *hands*

I'm actually kind of... happy? to be dating him. I think we'll last... *shrug*

So. I'm officially a college drop-out now. My mom is Not Happy. My dad is disappointed. I'm pretty much screwed. I wasted last year and I'll loose this one too, apparently.

I decide I'm gonna study for and English Teaching Degree instead of Economics. I know it's a big change of mind, and (as my mom kindly pointed out) a really down for my future income, but english is what (and my mom can not understand) I REALLY LIKE, something I'll ENJOY doing my whole life.

So, this year I'll have to find a job OR help my mom at hoe (whatever that means, it's not like I don't help her already). For the record, my  mom is NOT HAPPY. We had a mayor fight over this, and she yelled some (true) mean things at me. And she still thinks it's not her fault I choose to waste 2 years doing something I don't even like. RIGHT MOM!!! SHE was the one who wanted me to go to college no matter what, ans even if she didn't put it in that exact words, she is giving me now (and she did back the) all the reasons why I shouldn't what to drop Economics and go for English. I GET IT, ALRIGHT?!?!?! I WON'T BE FREAKING RICH!!!! I DON'T CARE, I WANNA DO WHAT I LIKE!!!

My dad was pretty mellow about it. Just asked why, agreed with me and told me not to waste this year again, keep going to the private english academy, and maybe find a job or try to study to dedicate more time and study alone so I can be ok next year (What better that read a lot of bandom porn, right? that's how I learned this language *g*) I kind of thought he was going to be less understanding about it. Gotta love my dad, he really wants me to do what I want, even if that's not "what's best for me" or "what will make me rich"

In other news, I'm apparently grounded for life. SUCK MY NON-EXISTENT COCK MOM

JESUS CHRIST! I can't believe it yet! Walter called me today and told me he wanted me to go to his private vocal classes. FOR FREE!!!! He invited me so I can learn how to properly sing AND HE ISN'T CHARGING ME!!! ASIFHASKDJNVIJYUVSJDITJ THIS ROOOOOOCKSSSS!

OMG! I JUST KISSED MY BEST FRIEND!!!!! MY BEST GIRLFRIEND!!!!!11!!!!1!!!!!ELEVENELEVENONE pst, and I totally liked it
AND I WASN'T DRUNK! I TOTALLY WASN'T!!! she may had been.

Mel, I'm sorry, I totally didn't take advantage of you. You consented, remember?  mmm.... well, maybe me saying "Are you going to chicken out?" Isn't exactly the best way to do it, but... PLEASE DON''T HATE ME, YOUR BOYFRIEND WAS THERE AND HE APPROVED SO HARD! HE EVEN ENCOURAGED IT. btw, Gus, you rock *wink wink*


*We were totally getting smashed on vodka in my house, for the record.